Kingston July 9th 2011 – Dec 14th 2014
I know this is a boudoir blog, but none the less this is my blog and if I want to write about how much I loved my sweet dog, I’m going to. It’s been a very rough and busy week. I’ve been a total mess over the loss of my amazing dog and today on Christmas day, I just can’t help but feel the sadness over Kingston not being here.
We were suppose to go out last weekend get a tree and start decorating, but Kingston was hit by a speeding car right in front of our house on Saturday morning. He died almost instantly and was the most tragic thing I have ever seen happen right before my eyes. Needless to say, there is no tree, no decorations till last night, and getting in the Christmas spirit has been a challenge. Christmas feels like a bust this year. Which is so hard for me to say because I’ve had the two best and busiest months of my life. I’ve been severely sleep deprived and working 12-14 hour days, but I have been so blessed with so many amazing clients, so it’s hard for me to complain.
So for this to happen now, is just the pits. I’m doing the best I can, but it’s jut been so hard to process. With every loss I have in my life I have to find a way to turn it around, to make something that is so painful and horrible into something that beautiful and meaningful. I have not figured out just how I am going to do it, but I had to write my Kingston a letter. I had to let him know how much he meant to me. It just seemed like the right thing to do. So here it is, my goodbye letter to the best dog I’ve ever known.
Kingston, my sweet baby boy, you had me from the moment I laid eyes on you.
I’ve never ever forgot the way you felt in my arms when I picked you up for the first time. I wasn’t looking for a dog, I had never even thought about it, but there you were, staring at me with your big beautiful green eyes. It was love at first sight. I picked you up and in an instant it was decided, you were going to be mine. I’ve never been drawn to an animal like I was drawn to you. It was a strange overpowering force that could not be denied. I put you in the car and our journey together began.
You quickly became the best decision I’ve ever made. Waking up to your kisses, coming home to your love, running around in the mountains, cuddle sessions whenever I needed them. You were perfect, my perfect little beast. You came on all my photoshoots, showered my clients with your sensitive love. Kingston you were my little angel. I couldn’t have asked for a better dog.
It’s been 10 painful days since I’ve kissed your sweet face and no words can describe this aching hole in my heart. As I sit here and stare at this box of ashes that use to be my amazing dog, tears stream down my face and I want to know why. Why now, why so young, why so fast, why you? What I have to believe, is that everything happens for a reason, but whatever that reason is, is beyond my understanding right now, and so I have to make a promise to you that somehow, someway your death will not be in vain. I will find a way to save more dogs lives and find more dogs homes. That is my promise to you.
Thank you Kingston for blessing my life with so much love, you were my best friend and will be buried in my heart forever.
And for all you out there, I wish you a beautiful day today full of peace and love. I do have one Christmas wish, if you have an animal in your home, please go wrap your arms around them and tell them how much you love them.